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How to curb the fear
Hi everyone, it has been quite sometime since I have been on the network. We have had other dramas in our life and my focus has tended to be on that. A couple of weeks ago my psychologist comment...
Hi @Cook65. I'm a fellow traveller with post-active treatment depression and anxiety. It's shit eh. Mine ratchets up and down. Lately I've been having a lot of dreams about my deceased (from BC) sister. They are very visceral and hard to leave behind as I head into each day.
I've been having persistent and worsening pain in my lower left rib. I think it's nothing sinister, as does my BS, but to put that tiny kernal of worry to rest, today I had a CT and a bone scan. Despite the fact that my BS had ordered a chest scan only, they did a full pass of my body and went back and did two extra on my abdomen.
So of course now I am off the charts anxious that they've seen something sinister. I'm trying to breathe through it. It's beyond my control. Nothing I do now will make any difference. So it's one thing, one day at a time. How well this works varies from hour to hour. I'm dreading going to bed... I don't want any more dreams where I find my cancer has spread.
Hang in there. People tell me it gets better. I'm not there yet, but know you're not alone. K xox
I've been having persistent and worsening pain in my lower left rib. I think it's nothing sinister, as does my BS, but to put that tiny kernal of worry to rest, today I had a CT and a bone scan. Despite the fact that my BS had ordered a chest scan only, they did a full pass of my body and went back and did two extra on my abdomen.
So of course now I am off the charts anxious that they've seen something sinister. I'm trying to breathe through it. It's beyond my control. Nothing I do now will make any difference. So it's one thing, one day at a time. How well this works varies from hour to hour. I'm dreading going to bed... I don't want any more dreams where I find my cancer has spread.
Hang in there. People tell me it gets better. I'm not there yet, but know you're not alone. K xox