I've chosen to believe I am cancer free until proven otherwise. Any other way would send me nuts. Thats not to say I don't have dark days...at times I truly believe I've beaten cancer, on other days I'm just as certain I will eventually die from it. Hearing of another bc sister not making it highlights it. I've had a number of scares too and what seemed like an endless wait for results. All clear. I've found I'm struggling presently. Depression is definitely there. But I keep working at it. I get up. I work in a job I love and I'm getting back to exercise again now my shoulder issues are resolving (medication related ).
I've decided to just deal with what I know. There are so many what ifs...but as we don't know the future we just have to live in the moment.
Practise those mindfulness techniques. ..they really do help you stay in the now and not in your head. Jeep seeing your counsellor.
And lovely...should it be cancer...well we already know you are strong enough to face it again. And we are hear to help you any way we can. X