This is a very tough thing to
have to cope with. Cancer is never going to happen to us, so when it does we cross a line. If it can happen once, it can happen again. Well done for seeing a psychologist, the pains of the head and the soul are every bit as real as the pains of the body and benefit from good professional treatment. Living with fear is a pretty good recipe for depression. You can push it away for a while but maybe the best long term resolution is to come to terms with it - take the power out of the fear. Your psychologist may be able to help you with this if you are prepared to take on a different way of thinking. When I was waiting for my biopsy results, I foolishly googled and of course my symptoms all matched inflammatory bc. Not good. Particularly as I didn’t have it. Fear can convince you of almost anything. Of course I hope that your appointment will alleviate your anxiety but that fear may still come back. A high degree of anxiety also makes it harder for you to think positively about any more treatment, should it ever be necessary. First things first, check everything out at your appointment. Then have a think about taking the beast on, which will take time and energy but may also offer a renewed joy in life. Best wishes.