@onya. I am so sorry to read of your journey; that is so much to endure and the emotional toll you must be going through would be horrible and exhausting. I am 53 and had double nipple sparing mastectomy with immediate implant recon & right sentinel node November this year. I have posted about it in the recon group & the DCIS group. I had high grade DCIS in the right breast however with a strong family history of breast cancer, I didn't want to have to go through the trauma of yearly mamograms on the left breast and potentially having to go through the stress of being told I had cancer again. My surgeon agreed that for me, the double mastectomy would be the best course of action and he said the good thing was no more mamograms for me!. I was originally thinking I would stay flat - the surgeon went through in detail flat v recon and I ended up chosing recon. Up until a few days ago if someone had asked if I was happy with my decision, I would have struggled to answer, but the swelling, bruising and discomfort are finally going down and I can now say yes, I'm happy with my choices. It's not an easy decsion to make; I guess you need to think through what will bring you a sense of peace so that you can enjoy life to the fullest. Any questions you have, please feel free to ask - I have found this community so very helpful and understanding with no judgement which is fabulous!