Feeling better than expected what now

I think an important point has been brought up here.  Many of us have been "superwomen" and at work we have prided ourselves on getting things done, sorting things out, being the go-to person...then we go home and do the same there.  And that is how we define ourselves.  One of the things I regret about going back too early is that by doing it, I denied myself the chance to truly take the time to readjust between the treadmill of active treatment and the onslaught of work.  Once back at work, the fatigue and cognition issues became a constant source of frustration and eroded my confidence.  It took a long time for me to be able to take a step back and say "so what", at least sometimes.  While I love aspects of my job there are things that I honestly could not care less about and no amount of geeing up by the top brass is going to change that.  I will not feel guilt about taking time for me when I can - the problem is that now I'm back in the thick of it, taking that time is next to impossible.

So, consider this grace time - for you to get stronger and evaluate your future; to use the leftover energy for the people you love rather than to meet a deadline.  We don't get many opportunities in life to take advantage of a period like this and bloody hell, girl, you're not slacking, you've earned it.