Feeling better than expected what now

You made me laugh about the hair growth comment 😂. But you’re right, it isn’t about the cosmetic look. Well not to a large degree anyway. And even that is mostly because of what it represents. In most other cases, hair is not an issue as it grows back, and quite quickly. I think sometimes we focus on those things though, to avoid what’s really bugging us. What you mentioned above. I’ve struggled with the same questions. We all mostly think we’re fine, especially after surgery and treatment, until these difficult questions slap us in the face. And tbh, I’m still not sure what I’ve decided for myself. Who I am, how to treat this whole thing, how much importance I should still give it, how much fear and monitoring I think is good for my mental health, how I want others to perceive and treat me etc. It’s exhausting. I don’t have answers yet. So I decided, until I do have answers, to just do what I freakin feel like. Whether it be lazying on the couch, swimming in the pool, socialising with other mums or friends, being all alone in my own company, eating good food, eating bad food, staring into space for ages, working on my new hobby of repotting plants, reading more to educate myself further on things of interest, writing on this forum, thinking about finding tutoring work again, cleaning without allowing my OCD to interfere, and just resting. Whatever feels good in the given moment, I do it. My body and spirit know best for me, and I still try to contribute positively to society. It’s the best I can do for now, until I can figure the other stuff out. Because life still goes on, and the important thing is to enjoy the moment, no matter what. It’ll work itself out. 🤷🏼‍♀️💟.