Sorry for last post.
I think one of the things that is making me feel low is having to rely on health care practitioners to "care" for me in place of friends who profess to care but where have they been?
This is complicated to pull apart.
Yesterday I saw a movie called Off the Rails which is about friends who come together for an adventure provided by a cancer patient friend who has died. I thought this film would be funnier and uplifting. It was a tearjerker.
I saw the movie with a close friend, one of the ones who has stuck by me and understood the challenges. It was a bit awkward to be honest as its about friends who didnt spend enough time with the person who died. Kelly Preston is in this movie.
Anyway its thought provoking, close to home but not sure i would recommend.
I mean it fits with my general mood but is it healthy?...