An Onerous Life
Once I was declared clear of cancer in April 2018, 1 year after diagnosis, I slowly dropped out of the BCNA forum.
I found every new story to be more distressing than the last and I couldn't hold back the tears to read.
I felt I had nothing further to offer other than negative things, my life was not getting any prettier.
I took Arimidex for 8 months after treatment finished and ended up psychotic. I felt better the day after I stopped. That part of the treatment I'd say, was the worst.
You get told you're clear of cancer but there's one final indignity - anastrozole - taking that was worse than chemo and radiation combined.
So today I met with my oncologist for the last time. I will take nothing that he can prescribe, and he had a few on offer, including more scans.
My current condition is not chemo related so I should continue to see my GP and psychiatrist, is what he said.
I said that I thought my current condition was completely chemo related and we agreed to differ.
We did agree that he had nothing further to offer me in view of my stance and then we said goodbye.
My GP considers me as a palliative care patient, his prescriptions are much more user friendly!
I still go to my horse every day, I can't settle until I get to him, my beautiful magic unicorn.
Other than that I have no curiosity for the people in my surroundings and avoid personal contact except wherever necessary.
But it's not chemo related so goodbye forum. I've got something else - the oncologist told me so.
I found every new story to be more distressing than the last and I couldn't hold back the tears to read.
I felt I had nothing further to offer other than negative things, my life was not getting any prettier.
I took Arimidex for 8 months after treatment finished and ended up psychotic. I felt better the day after I stopped. That part of the treatment I'd say, was the worst.
You get told you're clear of cancer but there's one final indignity - anastrozole - taking that was worse than chemo and radiation combined.
So today I met with my oncologist for the last time. I will take nothing that he can prescribe, and he had a few on offer, including more scans.
My current condition is not chemo related so I should continue to see my GP and psychiatrist, is what he said.
I said that I thought my current condition was completely chemo related and we agreed to differ.
We did agree that he had nothing further to offer me in view of my stance and then we said goodbye.
My GP considers me as a palliative care patient, his prescriptions are much more user friendly!
I still go to my horse every day, I can't settle until I get to him, my beautiful magic unicorn.
Other than that I have no curiosity for the people in my surroundings and avoid personal contact except wherever necessary.
But it's not chemo related so goodbye forum. I've got something else - the oncologist told me so.
