A hugely challenging experience

Hi @relign, you are having such a very challenging time of it, and I am awed by your ability to still find some humor in it all.  Hugs to you.  

So true @primek It took three months after the mx before the loss hit me. My head isn’t really getting around it. It sounds weird, but I am left confused about it.

@relign Certainly initially we can be dismissive of the loss of a boob...just a boob is a common saying. However it is amputation of  not only a functional organ but a sexual one. Yes...life may not seem affected without it. But for most women...once the dust has settled and the inital horrific time of diagnosis and aggressive treatment has past...grief of that loss sneaks up. It's okay to grieve when that time comes.  It's not being shallow, its just part of the many adjustments we have to make following breast cancer diagnosis, and given your current treatment you have a lot of adjustments to make to the changes in your body. Take care. Kath x

thankyou everyone, nice to be able to talk about it, with people who have walked this path before, and I,m thinking that boob fed three children, was loved and touched, but its just a boob, not a leg or arm, its removal does not define me, well I,m telling myself that smilez

Hello @relign sending you a private message.

Thanks @primek will clarify with relign.

Hi @relign.
Such a lot to take in a very shirt time. Did you have breast cancer before this diagnosis?

Have you been linked with a breast care nurse and have you been sent the package from bcna?

https://www.bcna.org.au/resources/hope-hurdles/

Also there is a specific group which might also be helpful.

https://onlinenetwork.bcna.org.au/group/2-living-with-metastatic-breast-cancer

@System  or @Giovanna_BCNA  am wondering if this should actually be  in newly diagnosed tag or most likely metastatic cancer tag  now.

Thinking of you. We are here to help any way we can. Kath x

Given what you've been through - your attitude is just amazing, @relign  -  all the best for your appointments with the Oncs .... I hope the pain subsides & you are able to eat solid food soon.    

When my husband was ill & unable to take solid food, I used to make 'smoothies' out of 'anything'!   A currie (with extra gravy/sauce) could be pulverised into a liquid & just swallowed.  I used to do the same to Roast Lamb & mint sauce & veg & many other dishes .... I would smash them to a liquid (so he gets the flavour of the food), just not the texture, until he was able to get onto solids.  Be adventurous with your food - I also used to 'value add' custard and cream to an old fashioned Egg Flip & other 'puddings', to add some 'depth' to it ... and some calories. Rice Pudding & peaches pulverised together is LOVELY too.  I hope you don't lose too much weight whilst on the liquid diet.

Take care xxx

A little bit of humour helps!

I,m doing oki, next app is april29th, two oncologist, one boob, one mouth, I,m good, just still in pain, can,t eat solid food, and why am I walking lopsided! hahha

Can't imagine for one moment trying to cope with all that has hit you at present.
One step at a time 
Please update us as you go along as we are all willing you to best outcome possible from treatment 
Take care