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Anabel
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16 years ago

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I never ever thought it would be me!

Ok I am the slack one who did not have regular mammograms. I feel so disappointed  and angry at myself now. What comes next can only be my own silly fault!

It is only 5 days since I was told it is a "cancer" not a fibroadoma. I have to wait another 4 days to see the surgeon and hear his view on what will happen next. 

This waiting and waiting to hear what comes next is the pits.

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  • Hi Jo

    I hope you are having a good day today. I guess you are home after your surgery?? I believe it is only a day or two in hospital and not weeks like I imagined when first told.  I suppose the stay in hospital depends on the surgery involved.

    I feel I have so many questions and kind of know the answers but because I have not yet seen my surgeon wonder what my "lump" will bring. This is the longest week!

    Do you know how long after surgery your treatment will begin? Will it be the chemo first? These are the things I am unsure about at the moment.

    Thank you for your message. I will keep in touch.

    Anabel xx

     

  • Hi there Jo - welcome to your BCNA family and on  behalf of all of us thank you so much for sharing your story with us, especially as it is all so raw and new for you.

    I'm so pleased that you have your "My Journey" kit and that you find it so helpful. .... and I really like your positive attitude.  You will still go through a whole gamut of emotions before you are through with all this... you will want to cry, scream, rant and rave and laugh (yes we all do that on a regular basis), but the secret is to DO IT !!!! Whatever you do, don't hold it in - get it out there.  If there isn't anyone home to share your tantrums or your jokes then come on line and share them with us.

    Please stay in touch and let us know how you are getting on ....

    Cheers .... Shirl xxx

  • Hi Anabel,

    I too am a newby and was diagnosed on the 12th october 2010 so Im afraid that Im not as experienced as the other ladies. I just wanted to touch base with you and share one thing I do know is that I felt exactly the same as you. I beat myself up with internal diaglogue saying "how could I be so stupid" "its so obvious" "why didnt I go sooner". I thought I would go crazy with the waiting and sleeplessness. My hubby went to the chemist and got me some snuzaid tablets which definately helped with sleeping. My day finally came and its a week today since I had my surgery (complete local excision,reduction and sentinel lymph node biopsy). Will be having chemo and radio therapy.

    Be kind to yourself. Nobody deserves this. We can only now look forward and I am trying to deal with each step as it comes and take heart that many women before us have come out the other side and we can too.

    The my journey pack is great and jam packed full of all the information and answers to questions. I know I didnt get anything from my GP.

    I wish I could help you more as I know that the initial days are hell and I felt like I was smack bang in the middle of my worst nightmare.I also know that nobody knows what to say to you and that there IS nothing that anyone can say to you. I think its a process like grieving. I guess I can only say that it does get a little easier every day as we gain acceptance and all the information sinks in and we see that we can do this. We have to do this.

    Good luck with your appointment with the surgeon. Your not alone

    Love Jo xoxox

  • Hi Anabel,

    I too am a newby and was diagnosed on the 12th october 2010 so Im afraid that Im not as experienced as the other ladies. I just wanted to touch base with you and share one thing I do know is that I felt exactly the same as you. I beat myself up with internal diaglogue saying "how could I be so stupid" "its so obvious" "why didnt I go sooner". I thought I would go crazy with the waiting and sleeplessness. My hubby went to the chemist and got me some snuzaid tablets which definately helped with sleeping. My day finally came and its a week today since I had my surgery (complete local excision,reduction and sentinel lymph node biopsy). Will be having chemo and radio therapy.

    Be kind to yourself. Nobody deserves this. We can only now look forward and I am trying to deal with each step as it comes and take heart that many women before us have come out the other side and we can too.

    The my journey pack is great and jam packed full of all the information and answers to questions. I know I didnt get anything from my GP.

    I wish I could help you more as I know that the initial days are hell and I felt like I was smack bang in the middle of my worst nightmare.I also know that nobody knows what to say to you and that there IS nothing that anyone can say to you. I think its a process like grieving. I guess I can only say that it does get a little easier every day as we gain acceptance and all the information sinks in and we see that we can do this. We have to do this.

    Good luck with your appointment with the surgeon. Your not alone

    Love Jo xoxox

  • Hi Annabel

    I was a person who had been having regular mammogram - my last in July 2010 which came back "clear" only to discover a lump 2 months later and consequently be diagnosed with Breast Cancer on 16/9/2010.  the past 6 weeks have been emotional roller coaster ride for me, and playing the waiting game for results or the next specialist visit or test isn't easy, however I'm finding that talking about what cards has been dealt, helps me come to terms what has occured, the treatment plan you are about to undertake means that there is light at the end of the tunnel leading to a positive outcome.  Accept any help from friends, work colleagues as they do mean well and care, albeit at times you may not want to talk or face the fear of reaching out, but when you do reach out to talk it makes life easier.

    as a friend said put the "chin to the wind"

    take care

    Beth

  • Sorry to have to "meet" this way but you have found a safe place to chat and meet woman all over Aust that have some connection and like Moira said many are long term survivors. If your anything like me your life is very busy and we often forget to put ourselves first, so your not alone with delaying things i myself was given a referal for a mammogram (because I mentioned my boob hurt occationally) but never went because it "passed" and 4 years later had BC. Lifes like that but we bounce back and keep in mind that in this day and age BC is quiet treatable when found early enough. Try to relax a little (as if,lol) until you actually know what your dealing with, see your gp if you need help to get a good sleep so you can face the prognosis with a clear, well rested head. Meditation, what ever helps and now you have joined the BCNA family you have plenty of support through your journey. Dont forget to check out the support groups in your area, I have wonderful friends to share coffee, chats, tears and mile stones with from my local group, i wish you the same ,  Keep in touch we will all be thinking of you,  Kaz

  • Well we are all here, because we have breast cancer in common, but please dont blame not having mammograms, it happens, and on here there are a lot of women who have just been diagnosed, getting ready for their ops, and also long term survivors, you are right the waiting is the pits,  please keep in touch, feel free to add me to your contacts, and remember no question on here is stupid, so feel free to vent, scream, or just chat, we are all here for you, good luck we will be thinking of you on Friday, have you ordered your free "my journey kit" from this site, it has a load of useful information, for you, your family and friends, so if you havent already, then i suggest you you order it now. so Welcome and good luck.