Anabel
16 years agoMember
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I never ever thought it would be me!
Ok I am the slack one who did not have regular mammograms. I feel so disappointed and angry at myself now. What comes next can only be my own silly fault!
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Hi Anabel,
I too am a newby and was diagnosed on the 12th october 2010 so Im afraid that Im not as experienced as the other ladies. I just wanted to touch base with you and share one thing I do know is that I felt exactly the same as you. I beat myself up with internal diaglogue saying "how could I be so stupid" "its so obvious" "why didnt I go sooner". I thought I would go crazy with the waiting and sleeplessness. My hubby went to the chemist and got me some snuzaid tablets which definately helped with sleeping. My day finally came and its a week today since I had my surgery (complete local excision,reduction and sentinel lymph node biopsy). Will be having chemo and radio therapy.
Be kind to yourself. Nobody deserves this. We can only now look forward and I am trying to deal with each step as it comes and take heart that many women before us have come out the other side and we can too.
The my journey pack is great and jam packed full of all the information and answers to questions. I know I didnt get anything from my GP.
I wish I could help you more as I know that the initial days are hell and I felt like I was smack bang in the middle of my worst nightmare.I also know that nobody knows what to say to you and that there IS nothing that anyone can say to you. I think its a process like grieving. I guess I can only say that it does get a little easier every day as we gain acceptance and all the information sinks in and we see that we can do this. We have to do this.
Good luck with your appointment with the surgeon. Your not alone
Love Jo xoxox