Bilateral mastectomy

I'm so sorry to read about your diagnosis and impending surgery. I was in your shoes 16 months ago - trying to absorb the shock of a BC diagnosis and facing the terrifying prospect of bilateral mastectomies with expander implants. I had 13 days from diagnosis to surgery - truly the longest and scariest days I've ever faced. My biggest fear was of the unknown. I was so scared of what the pain might be like and of losing part of myself. I woke up crying every night feeling as though I was in a nightmare. I won't lie to you and say that the surgery was a breeze and that it wasn't painful. It was very difficult but once I was in hospital and things started happening, it was easier to deal with. I had lots of support which really helped but I do wish I had spoken with a counsellor because I have struggled with a profound sense of loss. Don't get me wrong - I'm so grateful to be alive and cancer-free, but as much as I didn't have strong feelings of love for my breasts, they were a part of me and now I don't have them anymore. You may not feel this way - everyone is different - but I wanted to let you know that I have survived five surgeries with another one to go and life does go on. You will find wonderful support on this network as many lovely ladies have suffered the same fate. Please keep us updated with progress reports and remember that if you are unhappy with any part if your treatment, speak up - be your own advocate and demand better care - you deserve it. Sending you positive thoughts and healing hugs, Xxx JeanineG