Wow @AllyJay. I hate needles and I have not gone through what you have. My initial biopsy was done with the doctor not putting the anaesthetic in the right spot so my body went into convulsions when he biopsied without it. Then of course, the so called 'painless' portacath procedure. My doctor has already agreed to putting me under when taking the portacath out after my treatments. I have stuck to my guns ten months before I even need to. Don't back down. Our lovely journey does not mean we are just meat slabs. You do need to let them know in advance you are not backing down as they need to have the proper medical personnel.