Thank you @Cath62 for your reply. What you say makes perfect sense. I am being my own worst enemy but I feel like my treatment was quite rushed, without the MRI and thorough look before my surgery was done. So it literally only happened just before my radiation commenced (radiation was not going ahead if any obvious areas of concern needed biopsy), so it's only now I am stopping and re-assessing it all. I am so scared of it coming back or another cancer, I am analysing my food and drinks and exercising like a crazy woman. I am waiting to see a psychologist and a dietician, so hopefully they will help. But right now I feel like I should have had them both off for more peace of mind for me. It's early days, but if I cannot move forward feeling ok, I guess it's always something I could reconsider down the track, although radiation would have all been for nothing I guess
