Time for a new treatment

Hi everyone Some of you know I was expecting results yesterday. Unfortunately they were not good. I guess we knew it would eventually happen but you always have that little glimmer of maybe it's all gone. I feel no different. So I have progression in my lungs. More spots and existing spots bigger. They don't tell me how many there are because they are 'numerous' - now a few are over the 1cm mark. No cough, shortness of breath or pain - completely asymptomatic. Skin met fine, lymph node the same. Bummer! Of course I have had a big cry. I am grateful for 7 months of the disease doing nothing - greedily I wanted more. remember that image of my son's wedding - somehow it seems a long, long way away and out of touch right now. But I am dusting myself off and picking myself up of the floor and moving onto the next treatment - Tykerb and xeloda. I will also have a biopsy of my lungs next week to see if we can get some more information on these lung tumors. I have too much to live for. I need to be here to guide my children through their childhood. They shouldn't have to see their mother go through cancer. Perhaps I am going to be controversial but I have to say a few things. - money needs to be spent on research into metastatic disease and finding a cure - now! I have more to say on this but my son has woken up and come into bed with me for a cuddle and that's more important right now. Much love and light - never give in - choose life! Amanda xx