@annsan That lost feeling will come and go if my experience is anything to go by. But as you move through treatment you get a bit more of sense of direction. Having a plan is good.
I was diagnosed at the beginning of December. The people in my house were told straight away. The rest of my family and two besties two weeks later. I didn't tell anyone else until after Christmas. You are the most important person at this time. For once it's all about YOU! Do what makes you feel comfortable. Hang in there. K