@viking1 @Sister thank you for the words you wrote. As a newly diagnosed (3 weeks) ago, I am fumbling a bit with what to say to people. I love writing and I think I will use that to help me express how I am feeling as time goes on. Usually, I use humour to express myself although today I can't think of anything funny to say. Just one of those days I guess. I really enjoyed the way you expressed yourselves. We just cancelled our Journey to Europe that we had started to count down the "sleeps" to. So to use the word "journey" in relation to my BC seems vaguely obscene to me. I start chemo in 2 weeks, treatment 1 is on March 23. I will not be counting down the "sleeps" to that day. I am not drowning in self pity I just feel a little bit lost today.