Survivorship

It is really really hard BUT each of us needs to find our own "piece of peace".  Firstly you have to wait until your body heals - this is the hard part as most of us are naturally impatient (me included).  I am finding that I have more well days then "off" days and this has a great positive influence on me.  Just when I get a "spurt on" I "go back to start" with some other illness.  But when I start to feel well again, I pick myself up, shake myself off and "run again".  I am hoping that the illness periods get shorter and shorter.  Today I had the best day.  I had to arrange tradies and be the lead part of the renovation process of our investment house that we are moving into soon.  I felt "useful" and valued.  For me, it is all about having "things" to look forward to and aiming high.  I  truly think that once my renos have been completed and we are successfully moved in and have this home sold, I will be looking to return to work in a part-time basis.  That will be my  return to "normal".  I am realistic to understand that whatever job I take on "won't be something that stresses me.  It will have to be "nice" but also have some challenge.  I do need a good reason to get out of bed each morning.  All each of us can do is "keep on going as best we can" in the hope that we can find peace within.  I am not religious but I do believe in being as spiritual as I can. XLeonie  PS  Humour is another avenue that I use as a positive aspect in my life.