Yep. All that. No idea what to say that may be helpful or I'd have said it to myself and be all better now.
I sneer with disgust when friends send me motivational memes or pathetic platitudes and have to remind myself that they think it may be helpful. In reality it just illustrates how different our mindsets are; even though I've known some of many for years, and it drives a wedge between us. How could they know so little about me--particularly since a couple went through this with me ten years ago-- that they would even consider doing that?
The next person who pats me and tells me I'm strong and it will all work out is likely to get a punch in the face. Given my present condition I may as well throw a wet lettuce leaf at them. I frigging hate people feeling sorry for me, thankfully there are a few around who do not. Marg