Stop The Bullshit!!

Gayle, just wanted to pop in and acknowledge your Post. I for one have never sugar coated my experience, so I do appreciate when other people don't. We all have different experiences through BC and some a hell of a lot worse than others, but I believe its all relative. First of all Id like to say that its fantastic that you got to 5 years, wishing you many many more! I made it to 4yrs then hit with a recurrence and whole lot worse of a journey....yeah I kicked and screamed even saw the depths of hell and can be brutally honest and say I did have moments that I thought the alternative was better than how sick I was. I did get through it, no clue how as a single parent 6yrs hard slog I wont deny. I never thought Id get to the end of treatment, but I did, it changed me in so many ways, but it also allowed me to sit back and really look at myself. Sure I still have days where I dont like who I see,yep heavier, even aged. But I figured as I currently recover from a Mastectomy/Diep Flap recon in a bit of pain...I can hate what this journey has done to me the past 6yrs or I can appreciate the challenge that I never asked for, that allowed me to rise, to redefine myself, to say NO, to put ME FIRST and to accept I am forever changed but what I never ever thought I would have learnt or found to this point...that I would learn to love myself 100 times more than I think I ever gave myself credit for. All my life living for other people...now I live for me...life is still challenging but I have 2 beautiful healthy children who weathered these years with me, who learnt to never quit...who see beauty where I never could..they SEE ME. To be 6 months in a new relationship at diagnosis ready to be abandoned...nope....2yrs later still here...still seeing beauty where I couldn't...he sees me. 

Thankyou Gayle, nobody but nobody can tell their story like the person living it can...it is their story wholly...nope it is not a bed of roses...and all the positivity in the world will not change what you have to go through. I actually dont look too far ahead to the future at all, but in this moment inspite of all of this...I somehow did find peace and had I not been challenged or broken the way this did, I would never have found me. 

Hugs Melinda xo