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BecJ
12 years agoMember
Ok everyone's journey is so very different. I meet a lady this week, approx 4 days behind me. And she is breezing through FEC which is great.
But I'm not. And please be sensitive to people and not think they are even if you are. I'm unlucky I get it. And I'm not going to wallow. But here's my story so far.
Two toddlers, single, just left and abusive marriage. That got worse, how dare I leave, since I cant hurt you any more ill get at you through the kids.
Then a month later found a lump. One day later locally advance BC to big to operate have to do chemo first.
Ok pressure court documents need writing, checking signing. Have to attend mediation. Have to arrange sale of house as he won't work with bank to allow me to make a payment plan. (This is highly strange and banks changed there policy just for me, as they couldn't believe what he was doing) small time reprey. All I'd asked for was 6 or 12 mths to do treatment. Big NO.
So in the space of 4 weeks get house up for auction. He refused to do any work not pay for any.
Now I've just started chemo. First cycle feel sick within 2 hours then get late onset. So vomiting into second week. Week three feel better. Try working 3 half days. First one wipes out next day. Wait til later in week more successful.
Change meds for next cycle to hopefully get better out come.
He then starts court proceeding for an urgent family matter, not coming up with a y reason its urgent. with a 15 page doc I have to read and answer with a deadline of days. I can't make it. We ask for an adjournment and later service date of one week to feel better. Denied. ??? What. The judge to one look at it and adjourned til next year, not urgent, waste of court time.
Second cycle. Is it possible worse than first. Still sick day 17 and not likely to get better before next treatment. Constipated dr can't get it to start properly can't work out why. Cough they are not happy about. I have little kids, I can not stay away from germs. Snotty noses etc.
so I have the snot, sore throat, nose. Dry mouth. Brian fog, dizzy. Headache ouch.
as of yesterday the oncologist said my toxicity is to high. They have to drop the dose.
One side of me says yay the other side is terrified what if this is my chance, what if this blows it.
But they are positive my body can not function this way and has to be changed.
Now that ends my sorry soap opera.
Advice to anyone to ring GP or/&chemo nurses straight away for advice. Just check if your not sure.
But also be true to yourself and what is really important to your end happiness. I've made many compromises as I just want to get the bully out of my next journey. I want to enjoy my kids and not feel sick every day.
I dont need money to do that. But I do need family friends and love and warmth. That is where my new journey as of today starts from. I've walked away from his fight and won't look back. Me and the kids are worth every ounce of goodness in our life's. money can not buy that. But good health will make that more enjoyable.