Kath, what a journey and of course close to the end it makes you reflective, absolutely!! its all part of it and its strange isnt it you wondre how you muddled your way through to this point, and yet you did and have, testament to your courage and strength. Time to look forward and embrace the point of no return, forever changed absolutely, but healthy. Gee I listen to you and Nikki, OMG I havent shifted a thing since Chemo and I hate it!!! I was working with the exercise physiologist but we were only stretching getting me ready, I need to lose about 6kg uuugh drives me insane! Im unsure when I can start to do a little to be honest at 3.5 weeks post surgery now still very sore :/
I found since I had surgery I only cried once, when I had my first shower at home and I had to sit and had to get my partner to hand me the towel and was devastated not wanting him to see the state I was in surgically. I had a hard time leading into it as you all recall...but thats it finished, hasnt phased me since. I just kept focusing on what my Psychologist talked about and how we develop such attachment to every part of ourselves, no matter what we lose we are still in essence the exact same. I dont know this really helped me accept and acknowledge I absolutely loved my boobs all my life they were awesome, but people love me for who I am not what I look like and whilst we all know that, we still have perceptions of ourselves. For me it was about remaining feminine regardless and the last few days for no reason HAHA Ive put on my makeup and glammed up just for me...too funny!
Hugs Melinda xo