Hi Kath, sometimes that grief and longing for what once was can hit you suddenly and unexpectedly but I guess all we can do is feel it and acknowledge it. Although I am very pleased with the overall results of my reconstruction (single DIEP and nipple reconstruction) I still have moments where I wish I still had my old breast and all the sensation that comes with it. As you say though, there is no looking back, I know I had to lose that part of myself in order to still be here today but knowing that still doesn't make it easy. Jane xx