Pathology results received....

Hi Emma, I know the feeling, last November 'I got the news' - two weeks later the surgery - had to wait ALL over Christmas and New Year for results!  It was agonising and I didn't dare know what to think at the time - except now it seems a blur, when I did get the results (on the 4th January) it was back in for surgery - I felt like I had stepped on the merry-go-round from hell, so I know how you feel!  If it is any comfort to you, like the ladies said - one day at a time, I use the expression 'baby steps' - just put one foot in front of the other.  By the way, you are not whinging - you need to vent and this site is just the right place - at least every one understands what you are going through - each time I went to a doctor they would hit me up with more news, chemo, radiotherapy, Herceptin for a year.....bla bla bla - then surgery to insert a portacath for the chemo and Herceptin.  One day when my husband went up the street to get some groceries, I sat on my bed and howled! I mean howled! I didn't know you could cry from your boots and I did!  My husband walked in and saw my red puffy eyes and just held me - neither of us could say anything............I could talk about it on here, but to people in general all they see is this 'bright outgoing person' who seems to be 'doing well' - but deep inside I was a mess!  I have been put on some happy pills and I certainly have 'picked up' - no one has any idea what we are feeling - except as I said the ladies on this site - so vent away darling, we are here for you 'talk to us' - we KNOW what you are going through x x x Josie