@Twiggy34B
I am SO sorry that you have to play the 'waiting game'. It is Such a stressful and emotional time, specially now that it is your 2nd 'wait' ...... everyone is always nervous - hopeful of the best outcome, but aware also that it may not be the outcome we desire.
My lump was initially found in Nov - but I'd had a couple of 'cyst scares' in previous years, so when the ultrasound in early Dec came back as inconclusive & recommended a biopsy (the same day Mammogram didn't even 'see it', even tho the Dr had shown the exact location!) - I wasn't too worried & continued to prepare for Xmas etc. The biopsy wasn't til between Xmas & New Year - but I'd already convinced myself it was only cysts (cos that's what the Ultrasound pics looked like to me!! LOL) So, I had a reasonably 'OK' Xmas & New Year, doing what I normally do, without too much 'fear'. So it was a bit of a shock on Jan 5th when I had a call from my GP to pop in (I'd already made an appt anyway!) and I could see from the look on her face that is wasn't the result I wanted. And so began the roller coaster ride, that BC is.
Having a little cry (or a big one) is totally acceptable and expected - even therapeutic! I am pretty sure we all have - more than once. There will be moments when something may 'set you off' - I've dropped my bundle a few times .....
Such a shame that your hubby has a grotty condition as well .... my thoughts are with you.
As @kmakm says - One day at a time & one foot in front of the other ..... It Is What It Is ... we just have to roll with the punches, rely on the expertise of the specialists & pray for a good outcome. (not that I am overly religious either!)
Take care, all the best for your results - I'll be thinking of you.