Well hello there Roby,
nice to make your aquantance but wish I didn't have to.
I know you are scared and feel alone and it is great youare now here as you will get more confidence in dealing with yourself, family, friends and most of all the Medical Profession.
The worst part is the waiting, you seem to wait for everything but once the ride really starts it is so fast you get through it as you have to.
You are lucky to have family and you must not worry for them, they will not want you to put your energy into anything othr than getting well.
We are here all the time and at all hours, I was a 3am 'er when I started my chemo last year and only have 4 rounds of 18 Herceptin to go as my chemo (TCH) started in July last year.
So many ladies have been on this road and are more than willing to take your hand in cyberspace and guide you through it all so never be afraid to ask, cry, yell, laugh and bitch as we all have and it is a safe place where we can say what we really feel, whether it be fear of the unkown or known, being let down by family/ friends/ work or school this is your safe place to land.
Best Wishes
Cheryl D