New to posting on here... Hi There :)

@primek you know what though it doesn't feel like 15yrs at all, getting back to work for a while and having a baby will do that consume time and thoughts and the longer I was cancer free the least I thought about cancer. The same with my mets now, it took 18mths for the tears to stop flowing for me to accept what was and move forward.  The fear of my liver mets progressing is still there but pushed to the back of my mind a little bit further.  I have bad days we all do, I find the monotony of going to the hospital every 3wks for treatment to drain me, somedays I don't want to go, others I'm happy chatting to the nurses, until someone says so how long do you have left of treatment.  I have learnt to just say wrong question to ask me life long I will always be on treatment, I have been on treatment for 15yrs in one way or another due to be triple positive.  My reprieve off treatment was when we decided to try and conceive and were blessed with a daughter in 2007.

I can't get my head around I've been living with mets for the past 5yrs time has flown bye so fast but my life has slowed right down.  Not sure if anyone else can relate someone will say oh that happened 3yrs ago and I'd be like really to me it could of been just 12mths, time gets all distorted.  Like the whole world is buzzing with activity and your stuck in a never ending cycle of treatment, thats on my bad days.  My good days are great.

On Friday I'm attempting something I never thought possible going on a school excursion with my daughter now 10 to Healesville Sanctuary as a parent helper, now that makes everything all the worth while.