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I think the hair issue is one of the big things that stops us feeling back to normal. I thought it would be wonderful to finish Chemo and be able to get back out into the world without the immune system issues. Instead I find myself lacking confidence to go out by myself. I don't look like 'me' without proper eyebrows, eyelashes and hair. Despite the assurances of loved ones that I look fine with my wig, I don't like the bare eyes and have never been one to wear make-up. I have sensitive eyes and hate putting makeup near them. But I am annoyed with myself for letting how I look affect my confidence and restrict my life! I think it is the aging effect of all this that is the hardest bit to adjust to. Like you said Bel you just felt younger with your original hair! It is only 4 weeks tomorrow since my last Chemo but I am already a little impatient to see some real hair growth. I think it must be a little like 'a watched pot never comes to the boil'. I keep looking but nothing is happening! I am trying to concentrate on the positives of no hair growth - no hairy legs or bikini line issues! But at the end of the day I just want to look like the old me. Being a hairdresser Bel, you would know, would a temporary colour be gentler on the new hair growth and give you a chance to gauge whether you feel better without the grey? I have concerns about the chemicals in hair dyes but figure that you have to balance this with needing to feel confident and claim back your life. I just need some hair to come back first! Your husband sounds wonderful, Bel, always preferring the real you. I guess at the end of the day we should all appreciate that we have been through some pretty traumatic treatment and as we emerge from this we may take a while to feel and look like our old selves. I just hate the waiting! Deanne xx