My First Blog
It's been 8 weeks since life was turned upside down with the diagnosis of DCIS which was to lead eventually to mastectomy.
In that time I've told family & friends, taken leave from work, had 2 sur...
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Hi Pamela,
I know exactly where you are coming from. My world was turned upside down mid 2008 when I was diagnosed with invasive ductal carcinoma stage 2 Her2 positive and I also had 4 nodes involved. At the time I was 27 and had 2 daughters who were 3 and 1.
At first I was scared but then that fear turned to anger and I used that anger to get me to where I needed to be. Yeah some friends and family and especially doctors copped it along the way but they all understood that I was scared. I too went through the why did this happen to me and what have I done to warrant this but trust me when I say when you get to the other side you will know exactly why it happened to you!
I tried to put myself before everything but my life was revolving around doctors, hospitals and countless tests and the only thing I could think was that I have to keep on going and fighting for my girls. I didn't care what they did to me, or how much pain I was going through I focused on them and made every second count.
Once I got through the treatment which took 18 months I threw myself a "Thank God It's Over Party" and thanked everyone in my life for helping me through the toughest hurdle I have had to jump yet. I also wrote every single day about how I was feeling and what I needed to get off my chest. I know you have a support network but none of them understand how you are feeling?? I needed to speak to someone completely out of the scene and someone I didn't know just to hear that I wasn't going mad and that all these feelings were normal. Being on here you can do that!!
My heart aches for you knowing that you are in the first stages. I call that the "Oh Shit!!" stage because it is all still unknown. Just remember that treatment doesn't last forever and keep positive thoughts. It is the key to getting through.
I am here anytime you may want to vent and I will do my best to keep your morale up!!
Keep Smiling Pamela, and just remember you don't get a choice in the hand you are dealt but you get a choice in the way you play it!
Kate xx