Last chemo today!

Firstly,congrats on finishing chemo.You are a real trooper to do it twice.I'm abit like you-second time around with early bc .I thought I was home and hosed after 7yrs but it came back last year in the same spot despite radiation-does make me wonder about radiation because the cancer grew 3cms within a year.I didn't have chemo the first time,just lumpectomy(clear margins!)full node clearance and radiation.I was supposed to take Tamoxifen but after persevering for 3mths and not being able to function,I stopped it.Perhaps that was my mistake?Anyway I sure am taking it now and it's abit more agreeable.That's probably because I'm older.But it's a real kick in the guts when you get bc a second time,especially when it's years down the track and supposedly behind you.It's just so random isn't it-no rewards for doing the hard yard treatments but what choice do we have. Since my second bout of bc I've made big changes ie.threw my job of 16yrs in and downsized house to a single level.Admittedly I'm at an age to this but it did seem the right time.I'm living more for the moment now and enjoying time with my retired husband.We've made travel plans for early next year but I must admit this makes me a little nervous.I don't know about you Jane,but I'm not so confident in my health anymore.Don't like making plans too far ahead.After being 7 and 9 yrs cancer free,are we going to have to go for 10yrs now before we breathe easy?One thing I have learnt is NEVER have a mammogram just before a holiday.My other personal rule is don't stew over a problem for anymore than 24hrs.At that point,either shelf it or forget it.I hope you are feeling really good soon,intime for xmas.It was great to see your first personal blog- keep it up!

                                                Tonya xx