The waiting does your head in and there is no getting around that anxiety you feel.I just kept really busy in the day and took an over the counter pill that the chemist gave me to sleep at night leading up to surgery.With my first breast cancer diagnosis I was a mess.I wanted the cancer out pronto and I had visions of it spreading like wild fire all through me just like you.So what you are feeling is quite normal. My lump was 2cm and cancer hadn't gone to any of my 18 lymph nodes.I then had radiation and was ok for 7years and then it grew back in the same spot would you believe.So in 2010 I had a mastectomy and the lump was 3cm. I am fine now and touch wood,the cancer didn't travel anywhere. I was driving and doing normal stuff about 3 weeks after surgery and I am older(56)and probably way unfitter than you. You just have to tell your rational self that a week or two wait is not going to make the cancer spread.It's a big operation but after 3 days you don't have too much pain and you can move around ok. You'll get through it- you're in battle mode now.I think it's terrible that young women like yourself should have to face bc.It's unfair and just not right and I am so sorry for you.We are here for you any time you are scared or want to vent. Thinking of you and sending a hug.
Tonya xx