You are all so kind . It's so amazing that I'm getting so much comfort from all the support . I feel at the moment that I'm in the blocks ready to run the race of my life and I just want it to start . I think my mind is my worst enemy and I always try to protect myself by thinking the worst . I've had this arm pain all day so I've convinced myself it must have spread . You are all amazing women and I just hope I can be as strong as you all . Thank you so much x x xThanks so much for listening last night . I just have to get to surgery and then the fight can start . Can u please just remind me until I get there that it's going to be ok