Jitka

Hi, as you said it is something that has to be done and I guess the best way to get through it is to be thankful that this horrid experience is available to keep us safe.  I hated the thought of chemo and cried through most of my first dose.  I think the fear of what it might be doing to me was unproportionally exagerated in my mind as when you look around we seem to all survive it. 

Be kind to yourself.  Do things you can and try to keep in touch with family and friends.  I didn't go out into public places as I was paranoid of catching germs when my immunity was so low but I used the internet, facebook and email to keep in touch with friends and family.  i watched lots of movies and just being able to have someone else take over the housework or meals is a good idea. 

You will get through this.  It is a hard road but it will be do-able.  The doctors and nurses keep a good eye on you and if you have any problems you should be able to ring them and get help. 

Keep your head up and keep positive.  This is going to mean you will be able to enjoy life more fully and for many years once it is over.