Isolated and frustrated

Thank you Jo.Tonya and Suzie, for your kind words and encouragement. Its really helped me feel not so alone. This is such a wonderful place to visit and share amongst people that just get it. Being off line for a few weeks and then logging on to see these lovely messages lifted my spirits. Thank you! I started my first week of taxol yesterday and so far so good. No nausea which is such a relief. I've 12 sessions in total to go. Trying not to count down too much! Yes, I agree Tonya about counsellor. I met with one at the time of diagnoses and post operation which was over 3mths ago. Time for a catch up to just de-brief. In the past few weeks I've caught up with friends who I've not seen in years. I stayed for w ends at their place and had such a lovely time. I'm really enjoying quite times with heart to heart conversations. Just can't do the big crowds thing at the moment. Thank you for allowing me to share my fears and to feel safe . My job takes me on country trips as a sales executive and this week my best friend came along for the ride. We did a Thelma and Loiuse thing on our drive to Hamilton and back. we joked that we would avoid the cliffs of the Grampions! Normally I would drive up on these trips, see customers and keep driving eating on the go but this time my friend Maria said to me lets have a look at the galleries and the  Ansett Musuem in Hamilton ( no idea it originated from there but it was fun)   had a picnic in the park and just smelled the roses. It was a nice tonic and one that I'm starting to realise as I go on this journey to be a bit more spontaneous and try not to put so many demands on myself. I'm slowly learning this. Tonight I'm being a bit of a couch patatoe which I'm allowing myself to be without feeling guilty! Thank you girls xox