Isolated and frustrated
Hello everyone,
I'm feeeling like I've had a delayed reaction and things are starting to come to the core. Why do I feel the need to be in control of everything?!
Operation was last Oct for breas...
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Hi Donna
As single women we are used to being in control but breast cancer certainly challenges this belief!
Our emotions are out of control through the chemo treatments and the drugs used to control the side effects and some of them also cause distressing side effects eg. not being able to sleep (Dexamethasone.) Once I realised this it was so much easier, I allowed myself to have "being a blob" days where I did not shift from the house and did absolutely nothing, sometimes not even getting dressed, while other times in the regular treatment cycle I was able to do normal things.
Friends can be fantastic, they can also be disappointing in their lack of understanding. Mine live all over Melbourne, none very close to me. I attended all appointments, clinics, chemo, surgeries by myself because I had to. This journey makes you strong and through it we do walk alone!
I stayed by myself right through treatment and I was prepared to ring an ambulance if needed, clutching my card to get me through Triage at Emergency, but thankfully I didn't need to do this.
Unless they have also walked the walk no-one else can truly understand the doubts, hopes, emotions we go through on a daily basis as we try to weather the treatments and reconstruct our lives by adapting to the new normal, hence the value of a site like this.
With love
Joy K