Hi, my name is Karen, I'm a 44 yr old mum of 2 kids 14 & 9 and after nearly 18 years together my man and I are engaged to be married this year, just waiting on confirmation of venue for the date.
My life completely changed just over 12 months ago. April 15 2014 I was diagnosed with Breast Cancer but thrown sideways to find out it was Secondary. I had a aggressive tumour which had spread to lymph nodes, spine, pelvis & lung. To say I was devastated was an understatement. I was shattered, angry, numb, I felt I was outside looking in at myself. The realisation of what Secondary Breast Cancer meant took a while to sink in, unfortunately my treatment doesn't have an end date, it is continual for the rest of my life. That is very very hard to accept and comprehend. I felt cheated, I felt anger that my kids now have to grow up with all of this, they don't deserve this. I hated that I put them in this position. Every 3 weeks I would be going in for my treatment, quarterly scans, endless blood tests, oncology appts, quarterly heart scans and that's just the start. If this current treatment doesn't stabilise then it changes and starts all over again, how on earth can I do this...
Well, as I mentioned its been just over 12 months. I still hate it I mean who wouldn't, but, I am here, I/our family have accepted our 'new' life and all that brings. We find joy in the little things, let go and move on of insignificant things, we treasure each other so damn much more than ever before, we have learnt patience, gratitude and just know that we will be ok. Every day is a gift and no day is ever taken for granted. I also know that there will be many many hurdles but WE will get over them and continue in our journey. I allow myself to have my 'moments' I think you need to, things build up or get overwhelming and it's ok to let it out, it's necessary.
I am so incredibly happy and am very much looking forward to our Wedding Day :) We have been incredibly blessed beyond measure by some very very very amazing friends who have actually offered to organise our Wedding, complete with kind souls who have donated the venue, celebrant, catering, invitations, music, the list goes on. I can't express what their kindness means I'm just so humbled and appreciate it so much. Thanks for letting me waffle :)
Love and light and hugs and all that to everyone. Take care.