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hi Brenda my depression stems well before my cancer but , i have been lucky to have  a wonderful supportive husband and medical team. . i am so sorry you you are having down times i truely feel for you but just to be on here and to be open with me is a true measure of the strength you have in side . and that is what keeps us going our strength sometimes we dont feel it's there be we wake every morning and there are things that even in the worst of times can still make us smile . . i always thought of my cancer as a hurdle and i just had to jump it day by day some days , some one would make it higher than i thought i could cope with but there i was the next day ready to jump again , and as the days went on it did improve i still had shit days which is normal considering what we go through. but i put it into perspective when i saw little children doing the same as me and they were smiling so their parents wouldnt be afraid i thought wow they are so inspirational and it helped me to try and be stronger , please dont bash your self up about having down days its a normal reaction to a shitful situation and all you can do is do things that you know will make you happy no matter how yuk you feel. i wish you well lady and biiiiig hugs from me to you .