I Believe, I Believe, I Believe

I feel it is like we all play chess. You just never know what the other side will move next. I just hate the grey areas of the CT. a PET would tell the whole truth but now we wait.  So the What If Syndrome reigns in the background for just a while. A maybe, could be, may not be area. The onc is sitting on the fence and so if she is I am.  Today my Dad finally admitted to my Mum that he understands that this is with me for life and it is not like EBC and that I will just do what I have to do.

I often wonder what any of us would be like if the technology in medicine was not where it is today.    I spoke today with the Onc about exactly what it is you too are doing too and asked if it is enough, is there anything more??.. You have made major changes, embraced East and West and are doing everything in your power to send the evil lergy away.  I try to evict it every single day, but boy it certainly has a mind of it's own.  She said I am doing all in my power and just keep on doing it.

We can only hope and continue to live with hope and love and walk the high wire every day. We live in a certainly, uncertain world and it is indeed frustrating when it does not seem to play by the rules.. I wish every day to be in remission but I see that it is always one step ahead of me.

I send you some seriously huge hugs and hope that the knight in your game is just around the corner and can protect you "the queen" from further harm  and send the enemy away xxxxxx