Hi @JanJune1964,
I am sorry you find yourself here. It is so overwhelming getting a breast cancer diagnosis. There is much unknown at the start of all this but once you have a firm treatment plan it will become easier to deal with at least from a planning perspective.
You are going to be ok. You are stronger than you think, afterall you have reached out here and that is great. Everyone on here is so helpful and we are all at various stages of our breast cancer treatment.
When you see your surgeon will you have someone with you? Good to have a support person there because when we are overwhelmed sometimes we miss hearing things.
I would also suggest writing down all the questions you have been thinking about too so you get them answered. Try not to google as tempting as it is. There is really great information here in the bnca and there are people who you can call too.
Do you know the type of breast cancer, grade, stage and whether it is hormone positive etc. Lots of terms but these things help your treatment team work out what's the best course of action for you.
I would also suggest you keep busy while all you wait for your surgery as it helps calm the mind. Try to get a few walks in and breathe deeply. Whatever you enjoy do those things.
Do you have a partner or someone to help you after surgery? Good to take any offers of help for post surgery eg housework or meals.
Where do you live? Maybe update your profile with more information so others on here near you can advise of any group or other local support. You might talk to your dr about seeing a psychologist too or someone who does counselling with those like us.
Wishing you the very best today. Big breaths. You got this! ๐