Hi JT
I was diagnosed April 2014. I had a lumpectomy plus 5 month chemo, 33 radiotherapy sessions finished just before Christmas. I'm still having herceptin until June.
I asked the surgeon to remove both breasts. Like you, I don't want this to come back. I had lengthy discussions with the surgeon over my surgery options, natural therapies and all the other treatments. I've also had these discussions with the oncologist. I ended up opting for a lumpectomy as there really was very minimal difference in the chances of it coming back. I needed to know all the options and what they meant for me so that I could make an educated decision about my health. There is no guarantee but I feel comfortable with the choices I made.
You are going to have hard days and it's going to be a hard year but you will get through it and you will feel well again. I think we all have a worry of cancer hanging over our heads once we've been there and done that. We don't have a choice of when or how we will die, but we do have a choice to be happy and make the most of every day that we have. Take little steps at a time rather than looking at everything you have to go through in one hit. Plan some things that you enjoy to give you something to look forward to as you go along. Good luck with it all. Love Karen xox