Hello

From your post I can see that they have picked this up quite early.  If they are considering lumpectomy they obviously think it's early bc and that's brilliant news for you.  I never had that choice.  

When you go to these specialists it's all very overwhelming.  I found it helpful to take someone with me as a backup for when I forget things or in case I zombie out.  

People give us all sorts of advice but I know that my surgeon and oncologist deal with this all the time and are going to give me good advice.  In the end it's my body, but I'm glad somebody else studies this all the time, weighs up all the odds and knows enough to give me professional advice about my best options.  There's never any guarantees and they are not always 100% right I know, but they are in a good position to be right most of the time. 

I am also terrified of the year ahead because I know I'm in for chemo and radio, but even though my cancer sounds more advanced than yours, I know I have a very good chance of beating it.  Hang in there.  None of us know what's happening tomorrow, but I don't think you're dying any time soon.  Cry when you need to.  Actually for the first two weeks I think I cried every day.  Then you get past that and get used to the uncertainty.  Even just a few weeks on and it's getting better.  Once you have more information about your cancer and your lumpectomy is done you will be feeling a lot better and more focussed. They will do various test on your removed lump and they will find out all sorts of information about it to help your doctors tackle it.  That will help them plan your treatment and you will feel more in control.  You will feel better a lot of the time.  You will be able to do this.  

*Hugs*