feeling alone/need support and advice

Thank you Tonya I really appreciate your support and for making me feel it is okay to feel the way I do at present.  I am very worried about getting very very depressed and falling into the big black hole that is so very hard to crawl back out of and if I do fall in then being able to get back out.  I am sure you girls will help me stay out of "the hole".

I have been looking on the www.headcovers.com website and it is amazing.  Is it an Amercan site and will that make much difference with the ordering and delays.  I organised a wig in Perth but the lady unfortunately forgot to put in the wig number etc. so I have to go back in and start from scratch.  grrrrrr.

My daughter is getting married on the weekend of Easter plus she is also having a "High Tea" at the Duxton in Perth put on for her by her bridesmaids on 25th March so I would like some new hair if mine has gone/going by that stage.

I also don't know how to try and organise my chemo (if I can) around the shower tea and wedding so I am not feeling and looking tooooo yukky.

I am very much over this infection because I have some doctors say it has gone and others say no it is still there.  It is better than it was but personally I know it is definitely still there.  Will be interesting if they go ahead with chemo on Friday as I have to travel back down to Perth again for it at this stage as they are monitoring a problem with my heart at well.

I am just a bit over it all and already exhausted and I haven't even started treatment.  I will also be having 7 weeks of radiotherapy after the chemo.

Look forward to hearing from you and the other girls.

xoxo