Feeling a little lost

Hi,I’m sorry about your bc diagnosis but glad you’ve found this network. You are in the thick of it, the dark tunnel where you can barely see a light just yet. It is just so scary  and you are are having the hardest treatment first. Let me say that every bc decision you have to make is an awful one! Some are just too hard to make until you’ve gone further through the treatments. Be guided by what your medical team recommends, do your research and listen to your gut. Although triple negative bc is a worry,it responds well to chemo. I had eostrogen +ve cancer back in 2003 when I was 47. I was horrified to lose a breast so opted for lumpectomy, full node clearance and radiation. It came back in the same spot 7 yrs later so had to have a mastectomy and chemo.- no recon and Tamoxifen for 4yrs.That was 12yrs ago and I’ve been fine-  bc caught early enough and the majority of women live a long life. The recovery for a mastectomy is not too bad physically- you may be left with numbness and a tight sensation.
I’m not going to sugarcoat it, being lopsided has its drawbacks and it can be quite an emotional time at first.You can always think about reconstruction down the track as it can all be abit overwhelming to have to decide now. I recommend listening to the podcasts by Dr Charlotte Tottman on this network-“What you don’t know about breast cancer until you do” She’s a psychologist who got breast cancer herself. You are not alone- many of us have been through this crap bc journey. Big hug xx