Dear @ilovewhenitrains
You can drive yourself completely up the wall with what ifs. Best to stop. Worrying about one thing at a time is quite enough right now, preferably things that have happened rather than things that only might happen. If you are not sure about reconstruction, then a delay is a good thing, gives you more time to think about how you feel
post surgery and what you really want. Getting through chemo is a big achievement, many find actual surgery easier by comparison. It’s worth trying to get some time to stop
the world spinning and maybe to get some guidance in dealing with the emotional side of cancer. Everyone concentrates on treating your body, for obvious reasons, but your emotions and feelings are hugely affected by both the diagnosis and treatment and some professional
counselling can really help. It’s important and often overlooked. Your GP can assist with a referral.
When you wake up from surgery, you’ll have completed the lion’s share of your treatment. You’ll have some adjustments to make but life is full of them. Give yourself a pat on the back, celebrate even. Life is precious, too precious to waste any of it in what ifs. Best wishes.