First of all, congrats on crossing the finish line! Oh, I felt just the same on my last day of radiotherapy. I think I was feeling a certain amount of grief for the year I lost and all the unwanted changes to my self and my life. I also allowed myself to cry for the first time about the pain and sickness I had endured, as I hadn't really given it much thought during treatment. I just did what I was told and battled on. Also, it's quite lonely at the end of the road. Sure, your family is thrilled you're 'cured' and in recovery, but they will never really understand where you've been and how that effects where you're going. There's a lot of mixed emotions at the end of treatment, that's for sure. You did it... be proud. Take care xxxooo