My heart goes out to you as we can all instantly project ourselves back to the day we are told "Im sorry you have Breast Cancer!" That day I will never forget. Being new to Launceston, without friends, and just my husband for the whole experience, most of the time...........long story......... but honestly, this website and the ladies/girls/friends I have made through here have been the most important coping mechanism I have had. We are all different, we all panic differently, we eventually get our sense of humour back, but fear can be controlled by communicating and learning. It is so true for me, the meaning of life has just been "Learn and Grow", and although I had a clear slate for 46 years, last November, it was my turn for my wheels to fall off. Its amazing how well we cope, and how good it feels after a good cry. But reaching out to those going through the same thing, no matter what time of the day or night has been vital for me. I will always be the No 1 Fan of BCNA and will hopefully now have more purpose in life, to help others who are experiencing this great challenge. Good luck with your days which will fly by, and all the different things you will do for the first time... but remember, we are all here to mentally, hold your hand. Best wishes. I am here if you need me ... feel free to read what I went through..... but there is ONLY ONE YOU ! XX hugs