Isn't it awful being almost held hostage to these drugs out of fear of something that may never happen? The percentages everyone is given is only an average (something that's not really mentioned when they give you the stats) So the percentage could be anywhere between 0 and 5. Funny huh? With the percentages I was given for surgery, chemo, rads and HT added together I actually have a 102% of it not coming back lol.
There are many people who have minimal side effects and get along fine. There are those who suffer terribly but are too afraid to stop. There are those who have stopped, get a recurrence and immediately blame themselves. Though they could not have known whether it would have come back or not the guilt and wondering remain to live with.
Then there are those who have dilligently taken their drugs for the recommended time and still have it come back. (That's the one that would tick me off the most). There are those who decided not to take the drugs at all. Some get a recurrence and some live happily ever after.
Sometimes I think it's a bit ludicrous really. Would I put my life savings on a racehorse at a 3% chance of a win? Would I follow her for a decade hoping one day she'd get up. She's menopausal, sweaty, has bone aches, trouble getting out of the gates some days and a fat jockey but I keep throwing bets at her for that small chance she's gonna win and bring me riches for the rest of my life.
So here I sit somewhere in the middle taking the drugs for 75% of the time and hedging my bets because I still do not have the balls to flick it totally....yet.
None of that is really very helpful to you I know. The question has no answer. It's totally and utterly up to you and that my sweet is the hardest part.
All the best with your decision. xoxoxoxoxo
