A Cup-One no longer two.

Hi, I am so glad you didnt need further surgery and they got it all.Thats one step in a positive outcome.Once you have your treatment plan at least you have something to focus on.

Yes pre cancer everything i did was in order to please everyone else.How that changes and im not that same push over girl anymore.Ive learnt to say no.And i have been humbled in order to ask for help.Though i dont need help now im a lot stronger mentally than i have been before.Just my body lets me down now.Im only 41 but cant do what i used to do.Fitness is going to take a long time to get back.If ever!!!

You will be amazed at how much support you get .My Mum who is like my best friend, my 10 year old son and my sister who lived near where i had treatment were always there with me.

I had to travel 3 hours each way for surgeries chemo and had to be away from home for 6 weeks to do radiation.I would drive down for chemo and mum would drive back.

You also meet people doing the same treatment each week.Their is a bond that forms.These people you trade stories with how each of you are coping.They become a positve in your little world.It makes it easier that you are not doing this alone.I actualy used to look forward to seeing them and i still keep in contact with a couple.

The nurses are the most beautiful people in the whole world.They are there for every step of the journey.They help to make you feel comfortable ,find you support services if needed , answer all your doubts and become very close to you.

You will be fine there is good days and bad.Yor mind is the hardest to train its amazing how much your body can withstand.Cancer gets all consuming in your head.I found i had to research it and read about it as much as i could.Im still quite consumed with cancer in my head im not sure if that will ever go away.Dont try to hide your thoughts and feelings i found honesty with myself and those around me was the only way i could deal with it.I wanted to punch people that would say "just stay positive". I was positive but i couldnt be every second of the day when the pain or nausea set it.But you are given so many medications to help you along the way.

 there is a lot of positives along the way and a lot of negatives.Just remember this is about you and you have to do the best you can to get through it.Its a hard journey ahead but you can do it!!!!!

Thinking of you Annie x