2013
So far this year has been anything but a good one... made a resolution to loose weight and stop smoking ... was quite happy to do those two the usual way... hard work and determination...
Then in the first week of January my dear friend and my oesteopath for 30 years dies at 54yro... i was totally shocked and saddened .. and 11 days later i am informed i have a malignant tumour ... OMG .. WTF ... this year is quickly going to ruin..
I feel betrayed by my body... and a liability ... where it has always been my job to support others now i have to re-evaluate my whole persona... not sure how ...
Terrified of where this is heading... in such a short time everything has changed so much ... and i know i will never be the same again...and sometimes i fear i am not able to 'do this' .. so many crazy thoughts run through my head