Here I go again

Well here I go. New here even though I joined in February 2014 when I was first diagnosed with BC. I wanted to hide away & not be associated with or communicate with all you lovely people as I knew nothing about BC so thought it would just go away & all would turn out ok! How very silly of me. I felt like a fraud if I went to comment as I only had two tiny lumps. So after I had a lumpectomy (WLE) & all my lymph nodes removed I renigued on radiation & hormone treatment. I decided as they were saying tiny I believed they were (the Drs) being redical. So I went along my way merrily just going to PA hospital whenever they requested me for U/S, Mamo etc. This went on for four years! I had made the right decision! Bam one night I felt a lump, VERY palpable this time high on my chest wall. Long story -short , 13mm Grade 3 invasive mucinous carcinoma ER strongly positive PR weakly positive, HER2 SISH positive close margin 0.1 mm from inferior. Advised it was a very aggressive tumor. My first reaction was do same as last time ignor it. But alas after 2 days or discussion with my two daughters decided I needed to take this serious this time. To say I am mortified is an understatement as I see from comments on this site it is a common reaction. So I say without fear or favour I join this active group with a heavy but hopeful heart for some advice & comfort which I probably should have four years ago. On a happier note my youngest granddaughter is getting married on 5th May 9 days time so I asked to have re-excision done after this so am booked in for 14th may to begin this journey once again. - clear
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Thare are a number of people on the site that have had recurrences. Was the original tumour mucinous, or are they saying this is a new cancer?
A wedding coming up is a lovely thing to look forward to
Take care
There is not point regretting what you did or didn't do last time--that is not going to help you now. Its great that you have a supportive family, put the BC on your mental back burner for the moment and enjoy the wedding, you have done all you can for now. Mxx
Welcome. No blaming yourself. You do what you think is best at the time like @Brenda5 said. Plenty of people have done all the "right" things, thrown everything at it and the stinking thing still rears it's head later on. So glad you chose to join the conversations. Have a great time at the wedding. xoxoxo
It's wonderful that you have a wedding to look forward to - they are always so beautiful! Enjoy!
Congratulations on the wedding, what a happy family occasion to look forward to. Jane x
Ps. Is that you on the go-kart? Go girl go!